This week’s My Week That Was is again focusing on just one topic, and that is an update on my Forty Before 40 list. I wrote the list of forty things I wanted to try and do before turning 40 about a year ago now (a bit too ambitious!) and thought it would be a lot easier to film a video explaining the list, what I did manage to cross off, and what I didn’t – and why.
I actually filmed this video a few weeks ago, but have only just got around to editing it, and thought it would be a good fit for My Week That Was series. In the video (watch it below or over on my YouTube channel) I don’t introduce it as My Week That Was, because I didn’t think about it at the time of filming.
My 40th birthday is now just 6 weeks away – OMG! I have always had issues with the age 40, ever since I was quite young, so it’s freaking me out a fair bit. I don’t feel like I’m going to be 40, and I am still so childish in many ways (hello Disney, cartoons, and collecting toys that are meant for kids!). They say that growing old is mandatory, but growing up isn’t… I don’t think I’ll ever grow up! Being silly keeps me young! I know I’m being a bit melodramatic here, and 40 isn’t old, but it is another one of those milestone birthdays that once seemed so far in the future, but is now on the doorstep… Watch my video till the end for all of my thoughts about it.
Since moving to the video format for My Week That Was, I haven’t shared an Snapchat pictures for a while, so here are some recent selfies. Some of the filters are so awesome! If you’re not following me yet on Snapchat, then you can add me: MsPurplePumpkin
Why should you follow me on Snapchat? Well… you get loads of pics of my face, and lets be honest, that’s hilarious in itself; more so with Snapchat filters! But I do, make little videos stories, and will definitely be doing more of that when we are in Florida for a month! So if you want to keep up with that adventure, then follow along!!
Oh gosh, after spending all that money to have the hypnotherapy in the first place, I’ve actually struggled this week with keeping on top of the things that Adam suggested I should do for the next 21 days. That includes, spending 10 minutes pondering the things I’m grateful for; spending 5 minutes thinking about the things I’m grateful for till the point that I could cry; and listening to the audios he sent to me. I’m ashamed that I’m not even finding a total of about an hour in my day for all of these things.
That said, I do feel like my confidence levels have increased somewhat, which is a good thing.
I do find my get up and go has been a bit better, but I do struggle with getting started on things. Quite often I waste time just thinking about what to do, before actually doing it, which is so annoying. And it’s not helping this morning, because the sky is quite cloudy, it feels cold, and the weather really does have a big affect on my mood.
I know that things won’t change overnight. I’ve got habits of a lifetime to break. As for weight loss/gains – I’m back up again this week. So annoying. I did indulge a bit over the weekend – had my family over yesterday for a barbecue, but ask any of them how much I ate, and I bet they’d all say it wasn’t over the top. And within myself it wasn’t over the top indulgence. But weighing myself from yesterday morning to this morning, and I’ve put on 6lbs. Frustrating isn’t the word. I know that my metabolism is shot to pieces, but I don’t know what to do about it. I remember Adam asking me if I’d thought about “just eating 3 meals a day” rather than doing my Cambridge diet… and that scares me, because I know I can lose control when it comes to food quite easily. It pains me to look at my little Mickey Ears weight loss chart, and know it’s back down to being empty, rather than being filled up with lots of coloured in Mickey Ears. And we’re just about a month away from our holiday now.
I will keep trying – I’m walking a bit better, and trying to fit exercise in during the day when I can. But clearly this isn’t good enough…
A New Month
But it’s a brand new month! 31 blank days to fill with as much positivity and energy that I can muster. 31 blank days to be the best that I can be. 31 blank days to make steps toward changes in my life.
I’m going to stop writing now, because I’m getting myself a bit worked up and stressed, and that’s not a good thing. Instead I’m going to go and write a to-do list in my journal, and get everything down on paper to keep me focused.